Sometimes I laugh when I look at myself in a bigger perspective. There is so much going on in the world...The U.S. and Iraq situation, economical fluxuations, car accidents, Wars and famine...And all the like. Situations of huge magnitude and they affect me so little. And then I look at my life...Going back to school. Best friend moving away, friction with my parents, church involvement, starting a new job. Such little things in comparison and yet somehow they manage to consume my energy, emotions, my whole life it seems! I have cried so much in the past 2 years. Even writing this I am trying to hold back tears and can feel an burning and stinging in my eyes. Oh God, how I need you. You are the beauty by which my life is made beautiful...Everything that is left in me that is life is you. I cry out for your mercy and grace. Could you please just take me home?
I feel like a fish in a fishbowl with people staring in at you. They see what color I am and the little space that I live in but I don't feel understood. I used to like that..The glass partition between me and other people that you only bump into when you get to close. But now...There is a lot to be said for empathy. I want someone to say "hey...I know what it's like to be a fish!"

Chad is moving to Kamloops and I miss him already.

I like the wind and the smell of spring it carries with it in May.

The Calgary Flames are winning and the whole city has gone mad.

Everyone has to deal with the things God has put in front of them, right?

I don't understand the concept of destiny.

I wish life were more simple.

I don't understand a lot of things.

I feel queasy.

But at the end of everything God is faithful.

Tunes: One thing - finger eleven
Walk away - Barlow
Beautiful - Bethany Dillon
A coke, a fry and a cheeseburger - KJ52
Lose Yourself - Eminem
Right and wrong - DMX