So I finally broke down and admitted how hard these last few months have been for me. In some emails to Amy I poured out my heart about how I've just felt kinda beat up and alone latley. There's a lot I can fight my way through, it's just the lack of community that's wearing on me. Jesus School was such a powerful community that I forgot what it was like to not have people who really knew you and who were fighting side by side with you and available 24/7. And then I came home and remebered. Quickly. And it's been really hard. It 's teaching me about my own weakness and the total dependancy I have on God, though. It's forcing me to try and stay vulnerable and to use the people God has put in my life as resources and support, even despite the tendancy I have to clam up and pretend everything's okay. (Any of the girls from Jesus School will know what I mean. Ugh...CARE GROUP!) And it's been a mega crash course in boundaries, too! All in all things are going all right. Nothing to panic about and no casue for alarm, just learning to walk it out day by day. I am really looking forward to the reunion! Please pray for me...and phone calls are good too! :)
May the Lord bless you and keep you. Thanks for reading. Peace!
Cha.