HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAD!

I feel kinda bored right now. Lots of little everyday life stuff going on..Same stuff, different day. yada yada yada.

I finally got my photo page up and running...3 cheers for Blogger! You can check it out at www.thousand_words_worth.blogspot.com, or click on the link to "My Photo Blog" and see pictures of the people you read about! YAY! (I am excited).

My dad is sitting on the floor, trying to make a deal with my mom to let him keep his squirrel. We adopted Malcom a few days ago when he came out of his tree and right up to my dad, and he has been living in our cat cage ever since. He is about 7 weeks old and has a serious weakness to apples. He sleeps in an old t-shirt of my dad's and likes to be spoiled.

We're doing the 30 hour famine this weekend. It should be fun, but it has been so exhausting to organize it all.

I'm preaching on Sunday. I'm speaking on community and then we're having a BBQ lunch fundraiser for the Young Adult group at my church.

My mom is extremely sick and the doctor is worried it may turn into pneumonia. She is the worst patient ever and has little patience for herself.

I start school on Monday and I'm a tad stressed, a bit scared and at the same time excited.

I am stepping down from leadership in my church. Youth ends on June 15th, and I will be leading part time throughout the summer until the fall when Lori will take over Worship. I need a break and I feel released to pursue different priorities. I am a bit sad, but mostly relieved. I need to do something that doesn't require my soul for awhile.

Jason got his car stereo installed. My dad did it with him the other day and he is so happy. Last night we went to Wendy's and for a drive. It pounds pretty good, and sounds nice too.

In the past 2 weeks I have spent a lot of time and money in phone calls to B.C. Between Chad and James and Liz and Geoff...So why am I still living here, again??

I am hungry and feeling a bit overwhelmed.

On Sunday night I am going to sit on the docks and have some peace before I start everything all over again on Monday.

And life goes on...

Sometimes I feel as though I'm stuck on a cosmic hamster wheel...And never really going anywhere. Other times I feel as though I'm moving so quickly that the speed makes my head feel like Jell-o.

Good times.

Peace.

Sometimes I laugh when I look at myself in a bigger perspective. There is so much going on in the world...The U.S. and Iraq situation, economical fluxuations, car accidents, Wars and famine...And all the like. Situations of huge magnitude and they affect me so little. And then I look at my life...Going back to school. Best friend moving away, friction with my parents, church involvement, starting a new job. Such little things in comparison and yet somehow they manage to consume my energy, emotions, my whole life it seems! I have cried so much in the past 2 years. Even writing this I am trying to hold back tears and can feel an burning and stinging in my eyes. Oh God, how I need you. You are the beauty by which my life is made beautiful...Everything that is left in me that is life is you. I cry out for your mercy and grace. Could you please just take me home?
I feel like a fish in a fishbowl with people staring in at you. They see what color I am and the little space that I live in but I don't feel understood. I used to like that..The glass partition between me and other people that you only bump into when you get to close. But now...There is a lot to be said for empathy. I want someone to say "hey...I know what it's like to be a fish!"

Chad is moving to Kamloops and I miss him already.

I like the wind and the smell of spring it carries with it in May.

The Calgary Flames are winning and the whole city has gone mad.

Everyone has to deal with the things God has put in front of them, right?

I don't understand the concept of destiny.

I wish life were more simple.

I don't understand a lot of things.

I feel queasy.

But at the end of everything God is faithful.

Tunes: One thing - finger eleven
Walk away - Barlow
Beautiful - Bethany Dillon
A coke, a fry and a cheeseburger - KJ52
Lose Yourself - Eminem
Right and wrong - DMX